Melancholy Moon: A Quiz, A Song, and a Poem
I seem to have “moon on the brain” lately, since I keep posting about it. This is the third in a row, but this one also stemmed from brooding about a fellow blogger’s post from a couple weeks ago. BlogBud cjwriter had one titled “Is the glass half empty or half full?” He was trying to make the point that we don’t need to choose either optimism or pessimism, but that we are unique individuals comprised of different combinations and points of view. We tend towards extremes of identification in our culture, and one wonders how that came to be. Most responders to cjwriter’s post agreed that the question is not helpful, and we refused to be judged on how we might answer the question in any given moment.
My response included an observation that I often found myself melancholy, and that I didn’t see this word melancholy as either optimistic or pessimistic, or good or bad. More as “deeply feeling”, I think. When I am feeling melancholy–which is far from all the time–I get quite introspective. I wonder why things are, and if they need to be that way. I’m in no mood to change anything. I’m just taking a look at what is, without bubbles and frills, but also without doom and gloom. And it seems many falsely equate melancholy with gloom, or even depression. It is far from that, in my view.
Having been haunted by this contemplation for over a week now, I began to feel it was time to move on to a frothier state of mind, for a change. Than I began to get “moony” and started to contemplate the moon instead of melancholy. Now here I am with both.
A few days ago I was clicking around in the blogthings quizzes. Sometimes other bloggers will refer to one, and they’re a bit like candy. When I finish one, I have a few more. I came upon one called “What Temperament are You?” I had just finished posting on a quiz about ones “musical personality”. Since “temperament” is a musical term (one I’ll have a lot to say about in a future post) as well as a psychological one, I of course clicked on it right away. Below are my results:
You Have a Melancholic Temperament
Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.Given enough time alone, it’s easy for you to find inner peace.You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.
The quizzes sometimes amaze me. A topic will show itself, and then the results synchronistically fit my current mental state. I think most of the things it says about me are true, although it makes me seem more of a loner than I really am. It is true that I delight in my own company and can spend hours or days alone, but I really do seek out others, particularly to share my musical interests. The last bit of the description doesn’t strike me as very fun, but oh well, at least I’m “wise and patient” according to the gods of quiz.
After the quiz, in fact, just today, I found a poem and a song. The song is more poignant than aching. I quite liked it. The lyrics and the recording are both online.
The Song, in part:
rising by the hill
that’s where we used to
waste our time
when keeping up with you
was all I could do
and now I’m living my own life
The poem, the work of a fellow blogger, seems to come from a much darker place. I put myself in the place of the optimist the poet is addressing, and although it appears the poet predicts great disappointment for me in my unrelenting optimism, there is just a crumb of hope near the end.
From the poem, entitled–I am not making this up–Through a Glass Half Full:
You lick your lips to whistle an uplifting tune
Perhaps taking your medicine a little too soon
And find yourself breathing dust from the melancholy moon
When a lot, or a little synchronicity gets my attention, I sit and contemplate its meaning. These past couple of weeks have seemed to be a time of deep introspection. I have been feeling good about my life, AND I have feeling that things will soon change dramatically (in a good way, of course). I think these moods are to calm me down, to get ready for the change. I always want to honor moods and feelings, without allowing them to overtake me. Peace to you.